Fast and Furious 7 is currently hitting theatres around the world, and with that Michele Rodriguez is taking the time to explaining her bizarre behaviour over the past year.
According news reports, the Resident Evil star is blaming the mistakes of 2014 – like dating Cara Delevingne and Zac Efron months apart – on the sudden death of Paul Walker.
After making so many films with Paul Walker, Rodriguez recently admitted that she was profoundly affected by his sudden loss. In an interview with Entertainment Weekly, she revealed that she entered into s spiral of sex and hard-partying to try to ignore her thoughts about life after Walker’s death.
Rodriguez sys the shock of losing a trusted friend, “the deepest guy I know,” caused her to unravel.
I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit. I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind.”
Rodriguez has spent much of the last 16 months living a life in the tabloids. She was photographed by paparazzi in various states of romantic embrace with British supermodel Cara Delevingne, partying on a yacht with Justin Bieber, and getting intimately acquainted with Zac Efron in Spain and Sardinia.
I was pushing myself to feel. I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was traveling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling…
I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who’s deep like me, who loves like that. When that disappears, you wonder, ‘Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?’ There was nothing to tether me to this existence: ‘Why am I f—ing here? And, like, why’d you leave without me?’”
Earlier this year, Rodriguez says, she discovered a renewed sense of purpose, and is now finally on the mend.
I just woke up [one morning] with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, ‘You know what, Michelle? Stop f—ing hiding. Go manifest.’ And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling.”