We’ve all had a crush on someone we couldn’t have.
Maybe it was the most popular girl in school, the cheerleader who didn’t know you existed. Maybe it was a celebrity or someone who lived on the other side of the world.
Or, most painfully of all, maybe it was on your best friend.
Falling in love with your best friend is a uniquely excruciating pain. On one hand, you can spend all of your time together while you bask in her beauty and peach shampoo. On the other hand, you can never truly have her, so you’ll have to keep your mouth shut about the revolving door of guys or girls who catch her eye. (What do they have that you don’t?)
L.A. singer Hayley Kiyoko captures the agony of an unrequited best friend crush in the video for her song Sleepover.
The song chronicles the imaginary slumber party Kiyoko wishes she could have with her best friend. The slumber party starts with sensual cuddling and ends with both women naked in a bathtub. The camera lingers on her best friend as she gets undressed and pulls Kiyoko into a deep kiss.
Of course, this is just a fantasy. At the end of the video, we see Kiyoko sitting silently on her bed, fully dressed and alone.
Even without the video, the song’s lyrics tug on the heartstrings. She sings,
I’m just feeling low, feeling low. Even when you’re next to me, it’s not the way I’m picturing,” and, “Come on, sleep in my bed. Can I just be in my head with you?”
Kiyoko has always been vocal about her queer sexuality. She wrote an op-ed for Paper and her first hit single was even called Girls Like Girls. Hey, we never said she was subtle.
Listen to the song here and learn more about Hayley’s views on sexuality and music on her Tumblr.